Thursday, March 30, 2006

When you know that happiness is surging, just can’t pull it away. But then, i just told my parents about it and they objected.

SO SADDDDDDDDDD.... :(

but think I’m going ahead with it, taking a high risk there. I'm definitely not gonna let myself down because I could really spend some good time about. Big fat sigh, need to rethink with some matured senses. EHEM...old enough to decide meticulously. Guilts arising...ar, HELP! When i could stop whining about my problematic behaviours here? Sigh, again. When the guilt diminishes, i will be a devil again. What da hell...

What was i going to say? Oh, yes. The world is getting dangerous. I have to bear that in mind.

I also admit that I am having a food disorder. I binge and starve, both. To be accurate, in fact I have a time disorder. Irregular hours seem to kill all my pigments that I look like a doink in the day and a vampire at night, but of course a sexy one :D Food seems so important when it comes to exam time. All the sources of hunger :-

Sitting down- 102 Joules per hour
Computer work- 102 Joules per hour
Napping- 61 Joules per hour

So, usually I burn out 102+102+61=265 Joules of calories per hour and eat approximately 1000 Joules (eg: a bar of choc would do) to retain my balance!

(Don’t D-U-H me. It’s just an approximate calculation)

Well, I need to eat PROPERLY. Seriously, even the bread and biscuits are moulding me rounder. ARGH! NITEMARE! Being fat when you eat less, truthfully a hideous nightmare **pinches cheek to examine dee extras**

*o*

In neeeeeeed of exercise.

Well, half of the horrible-s have ceased. **uh, blur wink** 2 more papers and 1 lab to go! Time to put on my armour again. Neverending wars, damn it. Whatever it is, I gotta say, LOVE TODAY FOR TODAY! April's stepping in. Glad glad GLAD!

Monday, March 27, 2006

With this piano, I shall create the notes of perfect mood, casting a lasting spell onto you. I would not put high expectations to which extent it shall amuse you, however, it will be amazing. It will be a waltz to dance for, a melody to die for. This is to nail our memories so that it would not be forgotten, kept in the library of depths, music. Every Baroque tune you played to me, I will recognize your wits, such talent composed. So, now it’s my turn, to offer you my composition. I am not sure whether you will care, but I do, very much. Till now and forever.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Nice Friday

Early morning with heaven’s tears all over.

**smiles and opens a hug**

I have been talking to people the whole week and people have been looking for me to talk too. Always there are unexpected mystery guests. Then, why am I supposed to worry for their problems after all?? And I don’t expect last minute solutions to be done. I am not supposed to worry but turn out that I seemed to be worried. That’s called, worried for nothing. Nonetheless, I do wish them all the best in their upcoming roads. Hopefully they don’t slip and fall again. Once bitten, twice shy and learn from experience to all of my dearies out there. Prosecuting as in I’m an expert in things but not, I am barely an amateur.

Tech Time 2006

Well, went for a stroll just. Things were pretty normal and busy. Nothing much, perhaps, the games kind of captured me. There were annoying DiGi people there, but.. **keeps cool, put on ma shades** ah well, things.

Going Home

Really planning to go home. HOME HOME HOME. Huhuhu..miss you.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Perhaps I should find a way out, not to mingle around too much. When things come undone, it should be done. I have been lazy. That’s dangerous. Again, I woke up with such tremendous headache. Wrong side of the bed, or the wrong bed? My fault, to ever stay too late to retune. I need a part time to not let myself slip. Anything. Argh. I can’t just stop.

Well, it’s a lazy day, but not a bad one atleast. Off for an evening jog later. Hopeful to see the green fields again.

Monday, March 20, 2006

the scary scary scary week ahead..

Oh, here comes scary Monday. I didn’t really eat properly on the weekend which made me almost feel like fainting when I strolled down campus early morning today. Hmmmm..but it will be a wonderful day I presume. I have been absent from a lot of scenes recently, perhaps, retire is the correct word?? Haha! But of course my adventures still go on, just a lil’ more subversive than usual. Although retired from all da` wonda-wonda-s, I realized that my guardian angel is still beside me :) Thanks for all the support and ‘sayang’ all these while. Teehee..always solves all my convictions!

Then I read this article about a man beating his dog to death because it stole food in the kitchen. **cries**

And women are second grade human in some third world countries where they only serve the purpose as sex slaves, labor machines and forever bowing to men’s orders.

Where in the world GOD created wrongly? Or mankind just had some inhumane diversity. Well, when opinions flow, I would opt for anger, frustration and justice. However, when it comes to role playing, there is just no one there. Just hope that the world would have a better day. But to define this, it needs to be build. So, would you lend a hand, and open up your heart sometimes? Perhaps all the time.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

THOUGHTS?

Before dawn, I woke up from yesterday, reminding myself not to miss out my fortunes. And, reminding myself too, I have wonderful people around me. Of all the people I met everyday, it reflects, letting myself know how to proceed and treasure even more. Materials are nothing compared to true love and friendship. These are those, and all are these. When I meet problems, I know where to go to. When I have happiness, I know who am I suppose to share it with. When I knew I can’t turn back, it reflects again…that I did a lot of mistakes; potholes which would make me stumble. Turning 21 soon, the golden key I had was “NOT TO RUIN MY LIFE”. I thanked him for giving me these words. Life would not be lifeless if you live it by your thoughts, your way..because? It’s your life!

GACC

I went to GACC(Games.Anime.Comic.Circle) at such an early Saturday (woke up at 9.45am and was there at 10.15am- similar to my 10am class timing :P) I spotted the finest poster of FFAC(Final Fantasy Advent Children)!!! However, when I turned around to have another minute of consideration, it was sold out already. DAMN! Then we went Gundam-ing. The SEEDs were terribly nice, with a 10% off for each. I went to another store where the Cloud Strife’s accessories were too attractive to be true and there was stuffed like FMA and real nice Naruto keychains. I got so into the mood when I heard “Arakara” from Fumoffu playing in the background! The manga corner was decorated with THE-POSTERS-THAT-I’VE-ALWAYS-WANTED (spurring my glands!) Besides, had a nice time spying on the COSPLAY characters..there were the Chrono Crusaders, Naruto characters and er..some very cheerful cats around (^_^ “) Took some pictures with them..but.. oro, till the sun sets and the sea dries, I shall post it here ^_^. A lot of people went with me, but by the time I left, they were without me :P felt a bit naughty but had to rush home to bed. Sorry, guys!

LOADED

No, definitely not loaded with money. T_T Loaded with labs, exams and assignments. DAMN IT! Hate it but love it, damn! But there are still people enjoying and going crazy with me :P remembering the 2.05pm to 5.05pm previous lab session. Well, hopefully we will get thru’ this session asap with a smooth sail and can’t wait for the month of April to set in!

Well, finally have to see some notes now..really need to..till then.. cheeriosh!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Sing Along With My Mood :)

ALICIA KEYS-IF I AIN'T GOT YOU

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love 'em
Hand me the world on a silver plater
And what good would it be
no one to share
no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
but I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah
If I ain't got you with me baby

Oh, so nothing in this whole wide world dont mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

One Fine Day

When I know what I should do, I took this mask off me. I have been moody ever these few days due to lack of sleeping hours. Ever coincidently, mum just called and I’m really missing home badly. But things were readjusted after the short conversation. Love it.

Mum : Fan bao, sek bao la, my dear lui lui?
( sleep and food sufficient, my dear daughter?)

Then, I laughed again…and I complained my bad days to her, how miracle, she settles it all by a retiree’s wee gush of consolation. She broke everything fair and nothing’s better than that. And now I’m writing my recipe at my desk, can’t wait to conquer the kitchen once again. Hehe.

Cousie LM asked me to go for skating again..

4:00:51 PM (F)^^^^>>>>>(S)(S)<<<<<^^^^(F) : nvr come down kl?

4:00:52 PM (F)^^^^>>>>>(S)(S)<<<<<^^^^(F) : i goin skating thurs

4:01:01 PM fern : heyaaaaa
4:01:06 PM fern : aiyo sis...busy lehh..
4:01:11 PM fern : i cant..till april maybe :P
4:01:22 PM fern : stay ur place again?
4:02:22 PM (F)^^^^>>>>>(S)(S)<<<<<^^^^(F) : gaga

4:02:24 PM (F)^^^^>>>>>(S)(S)<<<<<^^^^(F) : can

4:02:34 PM fern : aiyer..
4:02:39 PM fern : duwan ler..mmm hou yi si..
4:03:07 PM (F)^^^^>>>>>(S)(S)<<<<<^^^^(F) : nvm wan!!!

Guess I would, when I should. Plus shopping. Plus eating. Plus plus playing FF10 with da bros. :P She’s just as similar as me, very much molded by me all these year. Ho Ho Ho. Hey, let’s MNG will us??? And she’s 16.

Ah, well, back to life. **grumbles but happy again** ^-^

Monday, March 13, 2006

THE 21st

Definition of happiness? Priceless :)

I could almost see the pier from here, star light, star bright, under the blue moon shine. As if I’ve never invested anything at all. Buildings seem so tiny, human seems so minute..but the laughter is really huge. At one moment, everything let loose, no worries but just quiet happiness. i wish I could stand there forever, but the night would not last, and so would days. I hope to achieve and be blessed one day, so that my life, my days, would be the same as standing there. With this, I wish all mankind with peace and prosperity, one day less a war; you’ll definitely be blessed by eternal happiness.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

See, this is my agenda.
Also a tribute for the grand opening of leisure, tourism and see-the-world opportunity!!!

March- month of exams & assignments *puiks*

April- month of glamorous dinners
- month of exciting adventures

May- month of final examinations **puiks uakzz uerrrrr….

June- month of my first path OUT by myself!!!

July- starting of my 3rd year Degree studies................

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Aihzz..forthcoming scary week 6 with many dues.. and I’m missing trainings :( Well, time to rebuke! All the best!

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