It's a bit late now, feeling tired out of the Monday routine. It seems life would be a little better above clouds, above serenity and passion...where nothing substitutes nothing, or nothing can ever substitute something. Well, simple as it is, i'm glad that my dear friends still read this old dusty blog i have had..for like few years. I wonder how long i could keep the pace..writing is almost inevitable.
Time, place and people shall coincide, and wind up to be a dream. I'm out of luck, doesn't seem to get the coincidence too often, well, at the usual, time will just walk me by..so so sad eh. Oh well.. Why people chase over their dreams? where we can have them so clearly once we doze off into slumberland.. or perhaps their pillow just ain't soft as mine. It's not difficult to have a dream. It's difficult to write your dream. When you write them, you need the right words and rhythm. But damn..it's frustrating when most people can't see what you saw and can't read what you wrote, even with the right elements.
Although i might not have the all three, but i should write them out one by one. I shall write my dreams though it's tough. I know i should. Nowadays, i feel so layered as if dreams were no longer there, yet i know it's there. My words became meaningless yet meaningful. But, who would be the one who will read what i write...and see what i saw?
I'm getting too deep, oh no, i can't save myself...as if i'm drowning into the deep dirty dark sea... Thanks to the shallowness I've been through that brought me this path of the depth. It's not good..you don't find one or two easily in such depth. I really hope i'm doing the right thing...well, since ever..i'm much more confident in making decisions for myself, i feel so invisible to problems. It's there, but i just don't care.
Just not good enough yet. I felt like going home today, so i wen't and bought myself a bus ticket.
Reading Jean Jacques-Rousseau : The Social Contract. Very very nice WORDS indeed, which have been always be with me..
posted by fern at
23:44
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