/* Editor is LUM MI-FERN --- My Grotesque Caricature*/




Sunday, July 30, 2006

Finally the fucking apartment has fucking good torrents intranet ahead of the fucking firewalls which has put us behind worldwide torrents, files exchanges, webcams, etc!!!

A bit too pathetic and in a devastated state these days, I love EP.


A damn good Saturday nite with smoochey lyrics~ i am in love, with the silent moon...


You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough
To even make a start
But you'll never find
Peace of mind
Till you listen to your heart



People
You can never change the way the feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through



Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and lies
So goodbye
But please don't take my heart



You are far
I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart
Maybe I'll be strong enough
I don't know where to start
But I'll never find
Peace of mind
While I listen to my heart



People
You can never change the way the feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through



But remember this
Every other kiss
That you'll ever give
Long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man
One you really can surrender with
I will wait for you
Like I always do
There's something there
That can't compare with any other



You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you'd love me too
I guess you were kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool



Michael Bublě - Kissing a Fool


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Friday, July 28, 2006

Week of turbulence and work load reigning. It's not penalty yet, but you've got to at most least, grasp a convincing win.

Fretting, just a useless mode. It is not direct, not as convexing as you wish. Damn it..damn it damn it..i need accuracy. I would widely hope vulgarity is approved worldwide now. I went for consultation during lunch and kept my frets at least a bit lesser, but not the least yet. Stupid bad ownself prophecies would somehow make me sulk. Now now now... the night wasn't bothersome, bother-less as it could be, I went for a free swim of h2o clubbie, damn nice, damn fun, love the water, kissed the waves through my rough ears..

FEELING FEELING FEELING... as if the quarter sliced of strawberry were on top of your creamed sundae.

I've had some theoretical lessons recently, when you can’t be with your friends, you are dating. When you are not eventful, you are dating. Is it that when i am pooing a.k.a. not avail i am also dating in the bathroom? Dating my brush, shower cap and toilet bowl. Maybe it’s the singularity matter. It’s just a perturb acceptance, people want YOU the way they want it. And it depends how you want it to be.

Saw "a-something-alive" being ran over last night..eik eik..aiiiiiihhhhhhhh........terrible sight. Pure cannibalism, full detention. Ar..

Toes up!! Back to Alice Spring for the coming weekend! YOHOOO!!!



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Sunday, July 23, 2006

What is a good Sunday without sleep? Just had a cuppa cappuccino and wish to hang out thru the nite.. waking up tomorrow will be like…a nightmarish 3pm, Sunday and all the work undone, then I’ll ramble about my responsibilities..

Just went hanging out at a new outlet, namely Bali. It’s nothing personal or resentment, but still not my cup of cappuccino. Still would prefer the Neslo ice at the usual places like VJN. Places around here..basic students’ hostels, replaced by luxurious apartment + swimming pool + gym, cafés replaces mamaks as supper locations, food..RM4 replaces RM2.20. Is life all about luxury and what more.. great expenses? People would sit quietly, fret to make a scene, posing their best, dressing their utmost, but can it replace the great time where 4 gals rocked the whole RSU for the first time they went out for a simple supper?

Competition, a man-made game to improve their species.. Without competition, there will be no improvement, no revision and no pace in life. Does it do you good? How do you handle improper subdues? Can I do it for myself? What are the requirements of professionalism? Thinking of it will be my worst weakness... but being in it, really made me look-up at a lot of things.. Recently, I have been into a few competitions, be it academic or emotions… Yes, subdues are difficult to handle, human tend to laze, to have inappropriate conduct which messes up the whole thing. I am learning, still, very much learning to master the professionalism, long way to go. Love my parents for giving me the support…talking about my family, brother called today!!! Extremely happy because I did not talk to him like…mooooons.. Miss him too much..He’s always far, unreachable..but he will still be my competitor, idolized by me, for likewise, he’s far-fetched. Aim for the stars, even thou’ shall not reach, the moon shall be landed.

Watched the world for quite some time now, should I change to suit it? Is it the basic regulation which, to change is to upgrade? To be wise or a fool, is it the right choice? But it makes me confined, feeling damn uncomfortable. I like to be comfy, cozy, follow the flow, my flow, then I’ll feel the hitch of it, hitch of my life…am i poaching for the right prey? Not sure~~ I want it, certainly want it.

Back to moviez..coz.. it’s still my weekend!!! (btw, it’s a shame..i haven’t watch pirates yet..damn..hehe..)

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Friday, July 21, 2006

Missing home a little, missing IPOH a lotttt..Today, had three beautiful phases.

Phase I : Altera hardware acquisition

Yay! Yay! My ultrasonic circuit is almost ready for the road. Encountered some problems during testing but managed to verify it. Still, need to improvise the output to really see the phase shift. Wanna know more about this Doppler shift effect. It actually comes from the name ‘Dolphin’. Well, not surprising as they use ultrasonic waves to commune. Learning programming too. VHDL >.<

Phase II : Clubs & Society and hang outz

Went for the grandest ever AGM, ENGSOC COUNCIL 2006/2007. Can’t believe my eyes as the new board is superb, as in, really superb and efficient. Toastee to them and all dee best! A retarded retiree soon to be.

My taiko’s birthday today, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAI CHEAN SIEW ^_^… Actually didn’t know it was his birthday, just went hanging out with the gang at tennis court after dee AGM coincidently, went yumcha + celebrations. Going for satay celup and jonkers tomorrow..so cool…it’s weekend again finally!!! But still need to settle lotsa stuff. Bring the word out! –take it easy- *phhbbtt*

Phase III : Sleep sleep

A lot of sleep, yay! Again..atleast I get my concentration and mood back. Wish to be happy everyday ^_^ *have cheers in life, do not cheer to live*

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

---Impractical loss of the physical world's sensation, like a temporal death sentence---


I can't believe I am so...too disarray till now. Too many tasks to settle, made me stumble like a bottle off the stairs. **poke poke** [wakie wakie, the world needs you, and why are you bottled up?] No..I am not in the sort of bottle story, message in the bottle..flarh.

Seems that the day is not up for me, people has not been up to me. People, come and leave. Leave la leave la. Humf..THE DAY IS REALLY NOT UP FOR MEEEEEE..Yes, I am sulking to myself, sulking because the world lies behind everything I see now. Sulking that I have so much to do, but none really can get me started.

I should just get a holiday, great spa or something. And I should at least, be more evil, be more materialistic to converge into a creature, to suit some another extinct creature. But I just can't. So, I have to give up my role. Again, back to square one, don't annoy people too much with your obstinence, it's just unfair.


To be truthful, I think I should practise meditation. Good for mental health and cleanses the soul. For another great creature which suggested this idea to get me off, thanks for the idea, for me, meditation is almost daydreaming and later part,fall asleep. For meditation may be a bit religious to me, that's all.

Could you see my dis-arrays?


I should get to my books, not anywhere else. Forget about all the shitz.

posted by fern at 01:30 4 Comments

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Could you master the art of keeping secrets? What if everyone comes to you and pours, yet the restriction is no output? The instance is like a rubber tube when you turn on a tap but does not release the mouth. *BURSTttttt*

Bad bad predicament if this happens. Eventually, all of you out there, still lucky to have a rubber tube which yet to burst. Poor poor rubber tube. Even when it has holes, it has to hold because it has always been filled with water.

Need to burst sometimes really, when the time comes. But do prefer to choose a self-extinction/execution mode which releases off the omen without public notification.

Not so sophisticated here.I need a real good system to cope.

posted by fern at 23:35 2 Comments

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Free-spacing…

Pretty tired, energy bar draining off, HP & MP all.. Wednesday is meant to be a rest day in the middle of the week. But this mid-week, drained me so much, finally have some space for myself again. Lab reports, animation assignment, Altera, training sessions..the list goes on. Neglected my books much nowadays, starting to feel guilty. Anonymous told me the reason for not going to camp is “ I haven’t done my tutorials and revision yet”, while my proposal to turn down the camp was “ I don’t have enough cash”. But the reasons were all bullshitting myself that, I am going for it at the end of the day :D So, taking a weekend off to the forest!!!! Joy to the world!!!

Encountering bad lecturers in MMU is just like having your daily meal at a mamak stall. It’s just too common, well, we bear it till the end of our graduation and grumble it off. Well, kind of thankful to have some good lecturers this sem :) And for the insignificants, not a damn I give upon anymore.

Too tired after a hectic 3-day. Gonna do something loose. Movies and stuff and snug around me blankie and doraemon.

posted by fern at 22:21 2 Comments

Sunday, July 09, 2006



OH MISS GOH YEN CHIEW, I COULD HATE YOU SO MUCH FOR CAUSING MY TEARS BURSTING RIGHT NOW........I MISSSSS YOU ALLL LOTSSSSSSS......

wanna go home already :(

posted by fern at 23:49 2 Comments

Friday, July 07, 2006

One day during the trimester break at EP...




10x, nice fresh omelete!




40x, nice fresh omelete!!!





Mashed potatoooooesss..




Tadaaaaaaa....



@LMF



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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

There was a spermie story to tell.

As my friend was preparing for his departure to Aussie in probably around…10 days more, he went for a body check-up at kay-ale to ensure he does not inhibit any terminating virus before boarding to Aus. He was led by a male medical assistant (MMA) at the clinic, a private one to be precise. After all the basic fundamentals, the MMA simply wanted a sample of his semen to check for disease indications; started probing him sexual health questions and later, in detail even about whether he was sexually active the previous night???? =))

:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : then i knew i haven't heard of this from anyone who
went to australia before
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : so i asked one of them to see
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : memang they say no such thing
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : then my sister said...
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : must b the gay guy waiting the opportunity..
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : to help me ejaculate



fern : cute la u
fern : go body check up also super wan =))


fern : dun keik liao la
fern : pass d
fern : hahahahha


:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : no keik
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© :but he's gross
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : come to think of it
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : i already noe no such thing will happen cos my fren told me the mdic check is vry simple only


fern : means u are actually attractive to certain ppl
fern : u shud be more self-confident


:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : dengx
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : i want to vomit blood la talking to u


fern : but it's such a cuteee story


:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : gona cum on his face.. if that's what he wants


fern : can i hv ur permission to post it in my blog?
fern : it's gonna be a hot topic
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : diew
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : u can w/o putting in my name


fern : oh..i have such a cool fren here


:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : and i'm gonna save a bucket of my soyabean and pour on that guy
:::ΜαRϊΘ:::© : quote that




DEDICATED TO MY GOOD GOOD FRIEND :D

MAY WE SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN AFTER 2 YEARS and remember my kangaroo skin please! Domo..


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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Tired tired. Just came back from meeting now. So damn god bless that my project’s due date has been adjourned indirectly! So, the proposed date is not the actual due, just a report submission. Presentation will be due in February which means, we have lots of time to improve our task. YES!!!

Another good news is that, finally I managed to borrow the firewire cable from my lecturer to transfer my video datas into pc. Remember to ban this module, DCR-HC15E SONY VIDEOCAM. Retarded functions and totally stupid manuals and software they offer. But definitely offer excellent picture and touch screen panel. What is the use of these minute pros where the most important elements of a video cam are such craps? Well, frustrations over, phek-chekz over, now time to feast on alllll the videos ^_^ probably this week will get the job done. Fuck SONY, again. ^_^

Today, went to my another lecturer’s farewell party at Pizza Hut in Batu Berendam. It’s like one big Bio family again, this time, closer and much more upclose and personal! Just love it with them, each and everyone, so uniquely smart and causal, thus, put forth the everyday blues and celebrate another gathering with much love!

A bit too on the clock these days, makes me really depleted. Tomorrow’s German again with my bird of da house. Haha.

Life life life. Happy happy happy. Amour Italia!

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

Maybe today I got too tired to think and made quite a few incapable mistakes, in the sense of words and actions. Well, is it wrong to not know something? Or how cruel are you to give me a spontaneity exposure... Sorry, sorry for the stupid answers and mistakes. Those were really like..engineered to be elliptically stupefied. Can I talk with sense the next time?

Another day where I would sit in front of the monitor and daydream the usual, yet another sms, lifted me up high to the sky when I was so down on earth, as in, really deep.

Thanks for the 4 person who made my night. It was second best after football. Sometimes, football alone could do good (what I do at home), sleeping-over in the hall and with dad around. Then, the next morning, misses school or go to school for the post-mortems of the matches and bettings. No more liao uh.. But tonight, now here, without TV, dragging mood, and with crowded people is actually cool. Got a few keys of ‘happy-go-lucky’ from people and I am glad those are those. Today was really a tired one eventhough I missed training yesterday. Looks like haveta build my stamina back. Where is the old me? Great, and I had double supper tonight and double movies. Is this the new me? I think it’s the new physical me.

See, gonna get scolded and nagged very very soon. Help me learn to take care of myself. Decreaseeee my mistakes. Life is good, definitely, it’s a weekend, I am tired but still, goodddd..Love today for..it is a day to be loved. Everyone, have some love :D

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