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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Star-phish and sea cucumber

Well, wanna note this down before today turns into history.. or perhaps everything now had a sudden shift of present to past, and what's future might be becoming present. imagination or for real..sigh..

There's this wise lil cute sea cucumber who likes to nua at some rock and a spiky starfish which spikes whatever that comes around. The sea cucumber is easily baited by the starfish but yet to be victimized as..well, lil sea cucumber is wise ma. Starfish thinks sea cucumber is more like a fish since it succumbs to baits easily. They live happily under the shallow waters of Redang island well shaded with the large coconut tree leaves. Sea cucumber likes to crawl around and scares starfish..if only starfish could whack it and cast some magical spell on it to turn it into something uglier.. ah ..starfish has a dream to transform into a beautiful seahorse which is so sophisticatedly admired by many in the underwater world..or maybe a sotong to squirt black ink and kill dee annoying sea cucumber ;)


Beauty amidst of hustle bustle


Perhaps again, a dream will always be a dream, and sweet dreams are better more than less, ain't it?

Just made one of my day with THIS amidst of some mid week routines~ Who doesn't want to lie on the rock whole day looking out to the sun smiling brightly on you and listen to soothing waves hitting the shores..i wonder when will the sail change its course...

if only life is that simple.


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Monday, March 16, 2009

Reasons

In this life, we always have too profound reasons. Reasons which gifted us this utmost power to abruptly halt and retract from our decision and what we're facing. It's not easy to be out of our comfort zone, stepping over to something new for a breakthrough..choosing the path less taken, taking risk like never before. But where do we find those small little courage in us? where discouragement swarms beneath too buzzing to ignore. We find endless rituals to cast us out of the curse, whilst, telling ourselves lies, reasons to believe that the belief is true. But again, there is a contradicting negative force will push you awayyy from the 'correct' direction, leading you into something different, afresh, different and awkward. The small little courage does magic to change the course, as what we are today, heals your regrets and let you have reasons to go on. Back to back, they are reasons. 

If you can give reasons for yourself NOT TO, why not give yourself a reason TO DO?

Simplicity is gone. The calm only happens after a storm. Stop telling lies to yourself. Stop asking what, why, how but try to execute them. The reality is that what you chose. Dare to dream for your reality to exist. Some day we will know not all things could be carried aboard, only important things.. and things you have gave important thoughts all these while were actually redundant. 

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Saturday, March 14, 2009

Event done ^_^ Happie~~

Wee. Sweet. *shy

Thank you.

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

At this juncture, where your work had spun u around pretty too much, till you're too immune to feel any else additional pressure, it seems lifeless though you have THIS MegaPascal on your shoulders. I have this this this this this...but no no no no no TIME. What the heck did all the events saturate on one fine week? 

You have been ill, but you are NOT on MC, 
you are still going to office like no man's business, 
participating in the company annual run(amazing to be in top final list *shudder), 
annual dinner at the Holiday Inn Atrium.... 

trying to weigh an equilateral of administration, 
organizing your department's retreat session (just told to be co-mc *o*),
stuck your ass into invited talks and 'purposeful' meetings, 
impromptu presentations, 
site visits, 

plus your most honorable research findings which your boss harp on you in due course of a paper publication famine...

above all, you need to put up a sweet face whenever you meet people..

that was all on the right side. On the left side, i have insurance to deal with, study for my diving, plan my further studies, on and off juggle with some weekend getaway, HOUSE CHORES WHICH I FUCKING HATE MUCH...and pretty maintain my social network...

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

going crazy, mad, insane, talking to myself, pulling hair, throwing things around, shout, wrangle, cursing like ... i'm loosing words, loosing sanity, loosing life 

where is the time for me and myself has gone? huhu. gotta pack for annual dinner...


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