Listening to Gold 90.5FM
Eeeeee...the sidebar is up..thought of reliving the old sidebar coz i'm lazy to do any further coding.. my blog is ugly coz i am lazy
Well, life is pretty comprehensive these days. So much so, everything needed to flow in at the same time. T_T give me break man!!! life, career, thinkings and pregnancy (not mine..hehe) but yeah..have been hiding at home for the past 2 weekends due to some nice weather.. and so crazy in love with oldies lately, addictive yet soothing recumbence. Wanted to disclose my recent fervent was to brood at home.
Yes, i do agree now that when we are selfish, decisions are easily made (quoted). Well, no, life is not meant to be selfish. Sadly, there goes.. I am so sorry to tell you that i am really not up to commitment yet, so i gotta do what i'm suppose to do. I feel really guilty for my negligence on commitment, but please forgive me. I am yet to be 24, so i am still young enough to reason my deflection. I promise i will cover my mistakes, my promises and my negligence all in one. It's not good. I am closing more doors, rather than attempting to open new doors often. I am scolding myself for loosing the humane viscosity. I swear I will not loose it out to this deluged world, but it's hard to hold on sometimes. Give me some space.
Then, life got lifted up to another level. I hope the two BIG decisions i made were right. It seems rational, but doesn't seems right to me....seems ordinary.. doesn't feel correct or certain. Yeahh.. life is always a mess by sudden interception and then come....all the undeciding factors.. *rants -- it's so unfair why am i always the deciding person??? this is leadership torture!!!
However, i do realized at the end of the tunnel, whether it's bright light or dark failure, things still roll on as it is. So why give yourself a hard time? Just give your best shot, and leave the rest to your boss (not god). Perhaps in life, if you wished to go on further, you have to leave some behind. It's the balance of the universe and it could not be helped of.
I will be shifting to a new place soon, a career advancement and puppies running around back home on the 18th September. Should i fly home just to catch a glimpse of those cute little mittens? I thought my diving event in September will be great, but this is even a greater event ..might be the greatest event of 2009! ^_^ Birth is the greatest creation of all.
Aaaahhhhhh....at one time it is one plain grain..at another, gives you enough pressure exhilaration to keep you awake and talk to a long time friend whole night long~
Aaaahhhhhhhh ...LIFE is to blog along. I have written a lot this weekend, the gush of satisfaction just fills. Happy Birthday Malaysia~~ I am definitely coming home one day.
Passion runs in your blood if you are able to discover it's type.
posted by fern at
22:04
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