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Monday, February 26, 2007

What do I do when emotion surges… what do I do when I feel like winning but in actual I am loosing to the pits and drains.. the whining won’t end it, neither do the blues nor the long term internal combustion of black birth energy..

I wish I could use the word HATE on things like…determination, work, failure, study, love… argh.. part and parcel of everything that moulds me into AN ADULT.. dying to blog here as my other academic blog really sucks. Blogging with Gunning Fogg? WHAT DA FUGG? go google the definition, sick of it, aint no telling no more. I feel really useless today, about apprehending so many items which i am quite dying to hold onto and get hold of. Maybe it's the pressure of CNY 'relatives' comment' and papa's latest compas-spoon-fed-session. Don't say it doesn't matter, IT DOES.

Work and *grumbles* and dead caused by heavy clumped procrastinator basic tool – instant messengers (IM). Giving up on the bipolar sigmoid and hyper-something tangent thingy for Neural class hand-up due tmr at 8am.


Sit upon a lake and i found my directi0ns.

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Kayak Camp

A blasting experience and a superb weekend which left me unattended by courtesy and cleanliness~

It was held in Jasin, Melaka, a lake named Tasik Chin Chin.


look at the sliding waves caused by the wind


I T I N E R A R Y

Friday

Departure to campsite from MMU around 9pm and had ‘bakso’ (a type of Indonesian Beef Ball mee) on the way there. The bus passed the place where js, yc and I got lost during the search of Sg. Duyung satay and laughed a hell about it. We reached there around 11pm and met a lot of long missed friends and people, enjoy being around such carefree personalities, as being in a forest is the most soothing thing on earth! Started building camps and stuff but didn’t really slept off that night though..


Saturday

Woke up at 6am for morning exercise and went for road trailing for some time, then I hurt my previous-sprained ankle and was a bit worried I couldn’t join them in the later of the day. But anyhow, I just jumped into the water, with or without lifejacket and a lotttt of seaweed stucked onto my hair! DAMN but the smell is refreshing..wahahaha! Swam for quite some time, and then it was... RAFTING TIME (kayak)!!!!!


used it to cross river n mountains :D


SCARE YOU!


We went outdoors from morning till 7pm in the evening and later, proceeded with a barbeque and a first aid briefing till night. Everyone was falling asleep during the briefing as it was such a dead tired day! Oh yeah! We cooked ourselves for lunch and it was cool though…proud to say, we made the rice cooked in a place where the wind blew at 300km/h!!! Interesting, we used up all the solid fuel and had to find dry sticks to continue. *sedap jugak*


Sunday

All muscles aching for this day…didn’t sleep also for the previous night, as I got really excited when I met the old high comms of OUTRECS, just love hanging out with them although I’m a minority. Met out with oldbies such as Poyo, Fathee, Fazi, Ajai, etc.. We had RAFTING COMPETITION today where teamwork was really important. We didn’t win it neither did we lost. My group mates were Ami, Nazmi and Yao. 4 of us made it with much fun and effort! It’s not easy to control a raft seriously! But now I know! Later we went for swarm/jungle tracking and it was really cool too, lasted around 2 hours..crossed a real narrow rope which needs a lot of arm strength..made it through and proud of it too! :D


swim! swim! swim!!!!


When the competition was over, it felt like my heart dropped cos I really don’t wanna leave the place!!!!! Look at it! It’s heavennnn..the stars were like lightbulbs during the night and when the moon’s shadow appeared on the lake surface, you feel like crying to it. Really really don’t wanna return to reality and what’s more coming forth……



Well, life gotta run.



Now I’m next of a charcoal, bless me as a darker version of myself during this sparkling CNY!!! Leaving Melaka real late, but should be running busy during the whole week. I have a friend who brought assignments and tutorial home. SHALL I? shall i?

Last but not least, it’s valentine’s today and HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY to everyone!!!

I would like to wish my two guy friends, Luis and WJ a double happiness signature as they finally found their other half~ For those who are still single or lost, you can still celebrate because… ALWAYS THINK OF YOUR LOVE ONES, especially your friends and families~~




Think one, not two but also your love ones : )

Hold them tight, never flee but flow, never give up but give it a go…


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Tuesday, February 06, 2007

competence of some nights..

Mood : thinking back and forth
State : "okla"

I was really glad I made it 8am this morning for Neural class since I had some ‘judi’ at Alfred’s on Sunday night and went for the Manchester vs Tottenham match as well at IM. The match was damn hilarious when MU had used up 3 substitutes and later the keeper got injured. Then, they had to substitute a player for the keeper post and guess who? FERDINAND!!! It changed to another guy…forgetting his name, but the swapping of jerseys made us laugh a real hell out! MU was leading 4-0 and it was homeground for Tottenham. Back to the ‘judi’ thingy..thank GOD I won money as my luck is kinda running low nowadays, same goes with my pocket…..

Was really turned down by the ankle and had to skip training tonight, sitting at home reading ENGSOC PROPOSAL GUIDELINES (WTF!!!!) Oh well, hopefully Thursday I could make it for training…I was thinking..this could be the last trimester for things…hmmzz..

Keeping busy till next CNY with meetings, camps, dues…falalala... Two proposal dues next week…damn.. have to maintain some seriousness to start work. With much sleaziness overturning the busy mode, must must must do what must be done!




p/s-I had a new book today, LYRICS BALLADS. Hope to indulge further!


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Saturday, February 03, 2007

Song : 退后， Jay Chow
Mood : Grateful
State : Handicapped


It’s an extraordinary day with an extraordinary leg. Well, what could I say? Bus 11 was down since yesterday night. And I just HATE HATE HATE and LOVE LOVE LOVE staying at home. With much determination and kasih sayang though, I went to see some peeps on squash and some on-foot yumcha tonight..

Reached home around midnight, sayang hamster sedikit, then…


f_t_c_m: got camp to kolej unity pasir panjang next weekend
f_t_c_m: ouu u cant go
f_t_c_m: ada orang 2weeks wo

so..

chilivivi: -.-"

and..

chilivivi: ask jo also la
f_t_c_m: askin
chilivivi: wat's da verdict?
f_t_c_m: no respoinse

Thus..

f_t_c_m: If you’re an avid diver, you will enjoy the coral reefs, coral gardens and beautiful formations with steep drops.
f_t_c_m: ic ic


Well it’s weekend again, and tomorrow is flying-kite-day barefooted! Yozzaa! Anywayz, ever answered “yo” instead of the usual "yes" for attendance calling in lectures? Kinda funny when my classmate did that in Neural..but too bad I wasn’t there to witness it this morning..haha..First time getting MC in MMU...proud eh?? I’ve got some good chats for the sake of sympathy of only able being on the bed. Ehem..please do not feel proud of your telephone bills.

It is ironic that some point of relevance would actually put relevant into revelation, depends how it is revealed, for not everything is possible to reveal or disclose. The fate of a man will always dances with his soul. I would choose to always dance and never land on the fate which will be the revelation. Rebellious isn’t it?


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My uncle was admitted to ICU today in GH Penang. Trying my best to keep fingers crossed and also apprehending the final fate. Deep down inside the courage shall not shatter and so we do love you lots...


-Willpower is always stronger than Manpower-

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