/* Editor is LUM MI-FERN --- My Grotesque Caricature*/




Monday, May 18, 2009

It's a bit late now, feeling tired out of the Monday routine. It seems life would be a little better above clouds, above serenity and passion...where nothing substitutes nothing, or nothing can ever substitute something. Well, simple as it is, i'm glad that my dear friends still read this old dusty blog i have had..for like few years. I wonder how long i could keep the pace..writing is almost inevitable. 

Time, place and people shall coincide, and wind up to be a dream. I'm out of luck, doesn't seem to get the coincidence too often, well, at the usual, time will just walk me by..so so sad eh. Oh well.. Why people chase over their dreams? where we can have them so clearly once we doze off into slumberland.. or perhaps their pillow just ain't soft as mine. It's not difficult to have a dream. It's difficult to write your dream. When you write them, you need the right words and rhythm. But damn..it's frustrating when most people can't see what you saw and can't read what you wrote, even with the right elements. 

Although i might not have the all three, but i should write them out one by one. I shall write my dreams though it's tough. I know i should. Nowadays, i feel so layered as if dreams were no longer there, yet i know it's there. My words became meaningless yet meaningful. But, who would be the one who will read what i write...and see what i saw? 

I'm getting too deep, oh no, i can't save myself...as if i'm drowning into the deep dirty dark sea... Thanks to the shallowness I've been through that brought me this path of the depth. It's not good..you don't find one or two easily in such depth. I really hope i'm doing the right thing...well, since ever..i'm much more confident in making decisions for myself, i feel so invisible to problems. It's there, but i just don't care. 

Just not good enough yet. I felt like going home today, so i wen't and bought myself a bus ticket. 

Reading Jean Jacques-Rousseau : The Social Contract. Very very nice WORDS indeed, which have been always be with me..

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Tuesday, May 05, 2009

i always have lots to do. but i always don't do the lots of stuff that's needed to be done. It feels great, to take one day off from work.. totally not doing anything, brain emptied.. (okay..a tiny confession that i did peep at the office mailbox.. BUT it was for a personal communication.. :P okay! i did replied some of my colleagues..they sounded urgent :) )

Labour day's weekend was superb with the old uni gang again..i love the pics taken..it's just some real good ol' days revamp!..after school rock..everyone more proper and matured after being in the working world for almost 1 year..i do admit, we did change for the better sake.. all of us, in our own different ways...and let's say fate was so 'helpful' to let me bump into my past in the midst of hype and everything..i knew it, a past will just stay as a dream..
 
I would really wanna say... i wanna work my ass off coz i love my job.. it sounds so not me.. haha..or probably it's really me..this kinda spirit would spoils the whole employee market completely..making it more competitive each day.. and what most, i found inspiration and passion in my job and that's really cool.. it's ironic that i can't wait to be back at work! 

It really feels great. Not doing anything. No thinking of any stuff. But you know...the waves will somehow come, and when it's time, you'll just succumb naturally. Till the time comes..good vibes, great feelings..and speak no more of the future. 


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