/* Editor is LUM MI-FERN --- My Grotesque Caricature*/




Sunday, November 30, 2008

Tonight i'm glad to know that i'm not the only one who is holding back the past. I begin to understand, why my dad would just sit reminiscing in front of his hi-fi playing some old songs. Coz i might be doing it soon, quite often, to archive ALL OF IT and put it in an invulnerable place.


Maxime's (French attach student) farewell at Turf City. *expensive seafood at AH YAT

Arhhhhh...life should be more than a nerve-wrecking job. I like it in a way, but i don't like it when it tries to take my life away. So we conform and try live out of it as much as possible. No much choices as engineers are made to troubleshoot, the frontline of problems, headache and suck up all the flow disturbances. I pray to build my course, to climb the high ladder..what is research when everyone knows everything already?


Scrabble competition WINNER team! (office games)

It has been 6 months (wow..that's like half a year) out of school and 3 months in SIMTech A*STAR. There are people asking me to settle here, but i have a whole lot of doubts. Most probably when 2 years come about, i will know what's what. and that's that. Just currently, doing what's necessary and worry later~

Saturday night, not out at the bar, or with anyone nearby me, just archiving. I love every bit of my old times. Every tiny weeny bit of it, be it happy, sad, sweet, sour..


The smile that sprinkled spring
Blossomed into laughter and poignance




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Monday, November 17, 2008

Getting SLOWER....

Looking forward to something tend to keep me afloat at times, when I feel needy to get out of the cage. Cage == working life~~ I am lucky enough that till now, i still maintain work flow without OT, but i think my pace is getting slower and slower. Why?? Increasing activities during and after working hours -.-" Time seems so constrained to activate the OT syndrome.... or probably just 'duncare-lah' to have good work performance..no motivation, no heart~

Office socialism vs work, which is which?! 

There's a lot of enthusiasts (nice way of calling workaholics) around me, which kinda creates a big dark shadow on ME, unless i on the tiny lamp to light up a little. 


25% promo for a new sushi place at Marina Sq till the end of Nov (forgot name, but shop is opposite gloria jeans and near Hot Pot steamboat and Secret Recipe)

Every time badminton after work keeps me as beefy bright *_* during the nights..for instance, TONIGHT. It's nice to loosen my tight stressed up muscles, but makes me misses tkd damn lots~~Anyhow, time runs like a cold bad flu. Can't believe i really invested my time and interest during those days..now i dun even have a heart to put up a good fight at the court..whahaha~~


Sex on the Beach of Arizona? The band was breath-taking!

Further studies or join the industry??? Either way i am so bad at it. At a cross road to realize things for myself...and telling myself over and over again to TOUR SINGAPORE MORE. I'm getting so darn lazy, i even lost interest in traveling, adventure, sports, bla bla..just wanna stay in my bed like..forever.. what has come to me?? okay..i still go some places..but the pace is also slowing down. and i wonder will europe be successful in a year or two~

Slowing down is not all bad as you could feel/see and enjoy things that some people are unable to. Upon a slip of time, i might even think my decisions through..I have also slowed down and managed to meet some impossible people in my life which is so so so important to me up till now.. it felt just the same as the first day we met back then. I don't know what the air is playing, but again..the running flu (as in time) even got worse that..time just slipped as work and some fun shoppy sheared it off..just so easily... oh yeah yeah~~ got myself a downshifter nike and really luv it though it's a plus one in size!!~

I guess time won't slow down, the world won't either. It's just me..trying to pierce into what i feel most important in my life...where some may think it's bullshit, i might just happily carry the gold away.... People should learn to love imperfection, they are lovely and unchangeable just as where they belong to be~~ you have to loveee meeee coz i'm MANDARIN IMPAIRED OK!

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Thursday, November 06, 2008

Will the change do you?

5th Nov 2008: Obama Barack is Mr President of the United States of America.


"Change the world for a better place".


One key word of almost EVERY politician would be CHANGE. Easier said than done. Now that he has two middle-east wars, a nuclear situation and a heap of economic mess to clean up, do you think he is up for those? Besides, he wants the best for the welfare of Americans in terms of health, home and future. These promises are too ideal to be true. Yes, a change would be good, but, for everything in 4 years by the Democrats? It's ambitious.

We always have so much in mind, the list and everything we wanted to do. But how many did we successfully accomplished? Everytime we write down, we feel confident, motivated, that is thus, we are still jotting or it's just a mindful ambition. Well, i do not mean Mr. President is a NATO (No Action Talk Only), rather, just take a look down the road and observe, and too, learn. I urge people to be realistic enough to differentiate words and action. The world is misleading enough by propaganda, the root of words. As always, disappointment always sets in at the end of the day. Yes, we do love to live in dreams, as they are perfectly perceived, and things work how we desired it to be. But in reality, THERE IS NO SUCH THING. Bear in mind that to be cautious is to safeguard ourselves and not anybody, in short, think before believing.

Dreams are sweet to live by, but everyday as the sun rises, we know it's reality but yet deny, and rather believed in fallacy.

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