/* Editor is LUM MI-FERN --- My Grotesque Caricature*/




Friday, April 27, 2007

"Somewhere someone is thinking of you. Someone is calling you an angel. This person is using celestial colors to paint your image. Someone is making you into a vision so beautiful that it can only live in the mind. Someone is thinking of the way your breath escapes your lips when you are touched. How your eyes close and your jaw tightens with concentration as you give pleasure a home. These thoughts are saving a life somewhere right now. In some airless apartment on a dark, urine stained, whore lined street, someone is calling out to you silently and you are answering without even being there. So crystalline. So pure. Such life saving power when you smile. You will never know how you have cauterized my wounds. So sad that we will never touch. How it hurts me to know that I will never be able to give you everything I have."



Solipsist by Henry Rollins


Beautiful. But i kinda had a bad morning. How to love someone who hates you? Question of the day. I am not perfect, just not, not anyone is. The simplest theory of mankind, has been taken for granted. Hopefully i shall protrude it soon, and i believe i will. Willpower always gets me through.

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

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Almost being a few years ahead, looking back where things would be simple, but me no simpleton no more. What waste. I sometimes want it to rewind so badly, but at the same time, want it to pass me by quick, so that the prints are slightly light. Where do we go? Where could i find? The betterman of myself, the today me, the tomorrow you, another person, another progression...that might end up a recession.



okay, since got perasan people here, so...

f_t_c_m: write bout me :>
f_t_c_m: *peace*


Just............missing old times...





People who taught me to live with each other..








US PIZZ-YEA~~ with my alpha gang....where are you guys?





check this out :D...long time ago in a malay hut in kampung Muar..


baby blue : aminah fong


and dee two counterpartz...


So old times..counts.. and still counting..best at times when we feel so missing them, the counter strikes us like lightning with a zap causing us directionless.






graduated and graduating people~~









Time please dun pull me together with you...






The long time missed daddie hugz.. no more sales in the market coz mummy existed already...










And hopefully time runs away on its own without me, coz i just wanna stay right here ;)

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Geez

I should be documenting on my academic blog. The server is down, and I’m eager to write, so here. Work load and schedules increasing lately, not to mention, back from Muar just yesterday night.


Work= holiday and big makan at Muar with a bunch of great colleagues.


What I miss recently?


I missed clubbin` with dee folks at station 3 for the weekend, awesome place for adults and boobs. Missed dee gang :D I also miss the time not to think of money too much and enjoy life. But recently, I have been thinking a lot about $$$. Why? Necessities, I guess. I miss my late night literatures and headset song abuse too. It brings real satisfaction. Now I’m back with it, great!

What work load is it? o-k-a-y. my room is smelly, laundry basketful(the thing I have come to hate most in my non-family live), some assignments due, grading this coming weekend and some unsure occasions I probably need to show-face. I would always thought of saving my weekend to complete my chores but end up being somewhere I can’t imagine of, nice :D


And what I should do next?


In need of time to reorganize and back to working on my stuff. Need some planning, accuracy and confidence to level up myself. The confidence I want is public confidence, change the public perception towards myself, and also, develop flexibility in the concurrent world. Wanna minus out insignificances that distract too, hopefully all these ‘goals’ isn’t procrastination again. I have this lil’ taboo with unmarried experience women, ever since..i don’t know..i just have this phobia with them, and yea..TABOO-ED for efficiency, such grey luck.


If you could see what I see, my intentions will easily permeate you the right way. Get a grip, babez...juz sway~

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Monday, April 16, 2007

the weekend no stress with a cute sunburn ;)

Reading journals now. They could not be less interesting if you could understand them. Trying hard to digest one for my EngSoc assignment and learning real hard to write a good technical report. Good technical report = successful way to convey your engineered product ^o^ [FYP contribution ;)] These few weeks is gonna be much academic till finals are over. Hope everything sails smooth.


One thing.

LOVE ME SUNBURN MAN!!! :D



Love the gang, love the sand~



I guess i am too free to flock around. Maybe start FYP. Maybe start studying for finals. Maybe work in PIKOM fair. Maybe just sleep at home. Which is which?

Amazing that some people can't live being single. And i can't live being attached? :P Too free to wu-liao people's business these days. Practically every night yumcha and rajin go training, maybe coz of grading also. so is also practically, FAT <---> THIN syndrome due to these kinda schedules. And i do admire people who keep me posting ;;) Thanks for the admiration. Wahahaha~ perasantan me.

Feeling real good throughout a lazy weekend. Sleep as sufficient as possible. Thanks lord for another beautiful day. Hope tomorrow will stay as beautiful as it is, present and future.


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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Monday is Mundane

Craving : American's Next Top Model Season 8 is on air and it's so hot!


I have been staring at my organizer for quite some time, and looking into pretty much free time. Aw. Probably you would wished to chuck your grandma's stool at me, and there is me, here.

Though, a bit pretty late to make some highlights, I had some good pool last Tuesday which made me less nerdy. I whored around Senyum with a slackish pyjamas..gawd, the fact that i had failed to whore around was due to my concentration in aiming the coloured balls. I did pretty good with yl. The session was refreshing with the younglings ^_^ I would praise their spirits, dignified.



younglings caught in the act at MITC~


Happy Birthday to Small Poh~ nice present! (shirt chose by Mike)



Last weekend was a shopping spree and some OLD TOWN COFFEE delight at Melaka Town. YES, still preferred the chains at Ipoh which really relives what coffee is all about. (Tho', me no coffee lover but still enjoy it, ain't the power great? Hail the long lasting heritage of Ipoh!) Back to back, i whooshed down to MidValley after a sudden decision by means of bus and a X-trail the next day B-) Shades on literally! Shopped till i dropped..Levi's was such a hell shop that their sizes were out of stock when i craved for one -.- so i moved on to few other cheaper choices and got myself a bootleg at PDI :D

Items I bought for this weekend : you wouldn't wanna know coz it'll only spoil a good future wife reputation. blek.

Well, rolling on. Altera results had been determined. UTM grabbed the first and third placing, while MMU hailed to be the second runner-up. Glad with it and live with it. Hopefully the company banks in our cheque quick ;) There are so much consequences to handle after the competition, but I guess it brings all good and hopefully no bad? I hope I am making the right choices here, has been thinking of a couple of decisions all the time today, even in the shower.

Charity work at 7am-.- tomorrow, super darn with the time because the thoughts of necessary to sleep early. TKD has been nice, excited for my last colour belt grading and coming events! Hope all's well goes well too!

Ou, and wishing my boobies all the best for her first modelling experience.

sHow your Boday~ Shake your Bootay~~

Ciaoz~


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Saturday, April 07, 2007

Where has the existence gone when it is supposed to be there at times when I needed it badly so… where did all those inspiration gone and left me plentiful with much to carry and nothing left to hold.. as if I would be awaken in the middle of the night trying to start all over again but I wouldn’t and as well, couldn’t.


I wanna be free. I wanna be simple. But I can’t help being all awry.

I still remember some 4 lines Bahasa Malaysia poems I dictated during primary. Awesome, simple, not awry, how admirable. Stoop and look up, coz it's my delusion, not yours. How nice and simply irrevocable.

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