/* Editor is LUM MI-FERN --- My Grotesque Caricature*/




Monday, May 21, 2007

i was thinking about painters and pianists. Would they ever be suitable for each other? One paints and the other plays. He could be romanticizing his pianist by no words, and she could too, with different spell of expression. Even one speaking French and the other Spanish, road blocks are undone. I fell in love with some pictures recently...inspired me into some dreams like.. finding the painter? or being the pianist is good enough? Well, maybe a painter who could paint the future? But is too dangerous to be with.


Oh..i love music and art, man. It does not separate.


Listening to Innocence - Avril Lavigne

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Saturday, May 19, 2007

Saturday night..only half-heartedly at home. Seems the exam week has demolished the term Saturday Night Fever. Called dad becozzz he has not been calling me for ages and guess what was the response? " Please dun call if there's nothing important. I want to save some credits " Oh so darn. And it's ME calling, my dearest. Should i ever get home any soon?

A lot of things ran through my mind last night but can't really identify what's what. Rather confusing and probably just brain malfunction after two delicate literature writing papers on Thursday and Friday. Or did i took too many naps during the day? Sweet afternoon naps..never can live without you..

So darn lazy for revision and another 5 days for 9 chapters x 2 ? 18 chaps to go with all tutorial undone for the final sem..what would holidays be? I was thinking to take the chance on Pulau Perhentian costing RM150. Oh come my wayyy... sweet beach, but a lot of buts for it and wonder how would Epsilon be?

Maybe i was thinking of too many darn unscrupulous stuff. Music plays it all off. Damn, i love the nothingness...it fills. SJ coming around. ciaoz...

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

This is cute.


ACT 1 : HOW TO GET A RICH GUY HOOK YOU UP IN JAIL IN APPROXIMATELY 10 SENTENCES


shoguntanagawa: anyway..i kwn of a rich guy who drives a honda city..his family owns a plastic factory...interested??
chilivivi: who who??
chilivivi: =P~

shoguntanagawa: well..ask him out then...
chilivivi: duno who oso-.-

shoguntanagawa: oops..sorry..i giv u his no...
shoguntanagawa: 012 xxx xxxx (for protection of rights)
shoguntanagawa: sway i recommend de..

chilivivi: okok
chilivivi: what shud the intro line be ?? ;;)
chilivivi: teach meee

shoguntanagawa: well..hav u tried pickup line??
shoguntanagawa: like..where hav u been all my life or sumthin..
chilivivi: oh..i am so not experienced compared to u..
chilivivi: pls giv me lessons~

chilivivi: call him and say where hv u been all my life?

shoguntanagawa: ok ok...u r lucky i'm in a teachin mood 2day..[ da pimp slang ]
shoguntanagawa: yup..tat's wat u shud do..
shoguntanagawa: surprise him...
shoguntanagawa: then he'll say..excuse me?
shoguntanagawa: then u say...u rexcuse..nw kiss me b****!!

chilivivi: yea..go ahead.. and?

shoguntanagawa: oh..i forgt...u r on d phone..so u shud say..come ep and kiss me b****
shoguntanagawa: then he's say...u r crazy!
shoguntanagawa: n then u say..yes..iam crazy..crazy for u...
shoguntanagawa: then he's gonna say..look here lady..i dunno u..so stop callin or i'm gonna call d police..
shoguntanagawa: n u say..call..call d police..for i am guilty for lovin u...
shoguntanagawa: n then he'llhang up n call d police..n d police will arrive n tangkap u masuk lokap..
shoguntanagawa: send u back sumwhere near ur hometwn...where u'll live happily ever after..
shoguntanagawa: good enuf??




ACT 2 : THE DESIRE TO GANGBANG

chilivivi: we dun hv peer pressure..we onli hv peer desires to hang out together
shoguntanagawa: ya..it's called gang bang....

chilivivi: we always do dat to each other~
chilivivi: ain't us sweet?
shoguntanagawa: ya..wish i could join...
shoguntanagawa: =P~

chilivivi: dun salivate
shoguntanagawa: y not??
chilivivi: i know u see feli n salivate [ MAYDAY sentence ;) ]
chilivivi: not here please
shoguntanagawa: aww...i want 2 join ur gang bang...
chilivivi: we do stuff u cant imagine during dee bang
chilivivi: and u can't say NO to it

chilivivi: interested?:>
shoguntanagawa: yup..hehe..=P~

chilivivi: awrite..
chilivivi: follow me closely..
chilivivi: firstly, undress yerself

shoguntanagawa: done tat..

chilivivi: put on dee women's undergarments
chilivivi: go down to town at hang tuah
chilivivi: stand at a strategic site and start waving n blowing kisses

shoguntanagawa: i'm there d...

chilivivi: alrite! we'll be off to see u thr~
chilivivi: and collect the money you've earned from ur waves n kisses
chilivivi: gangbang u, and throw u somewhr sungai malim
chilivivi: so that u cud swim back to klebang safely~



by a Super Cute friend ;)


dedicated to all the peeps who will be graduating~

posted by fern at 02:21

Monday, May 14, 2007

Religion and ME

It keeps me safe, intact, offers intimacy and security when there is no one there. Is contrasting your issues of different religion with your counterparts really important after all? I believe there is only one GOD looking from above. All types of religion were casted out as GOD's disciples to make human has different beliefs, teach them how to decide and respect others who are different. But, instead, human fought blood due to religion, as well as egoism for decades. Sad to see that sacrifices are made brutally blunt.

I love standing beside my religion. I want to put my faith into believing of something that would not let me down and I can tell you I sense the blessings all around me. It paths me my road, and it is up to myself to decide my destiny. When I step into the temple, I pray with both hands clasped tightly and bowed by the wish of procedural cause. I attend church, by all means of listening to preaching of the priest, and sometimes it makes me feel peachy too to learn the ultimates of life. I sipped through the mosque sometimes and keep silent when prayers were uttered. I go to the Hindu temple and does what they do. After all, I am a pure Buddhist and it makes me a better person to get to learn others' religions.


Have you spoke to GOD today?


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Friday, May 11, 2007

Chris Daughtry-Home

And so it accumulates. It started during the late evenings when I use to stare out the grease sky, but today it felt different, I just laid on my left arms, head tilted, just stared. Today this feel ruled me out, got busted. I could explode into red fire balls and joined the evening set, least, to let the daylight continued burning. I didn't want the sky to be dark too soon. I wanted things I can't reach for, example, the midnight stars. They keep me awake and yet, hum me to bed mostly each and every night. Not that when the sad moon takes over, and smirk me this pale sorrow, and so, I'll tell myself, tomorrow will be a better day. Could I hold all these together and say, "I'll be standing wherever I will be."


I watched the sun go down on me
As my feet sowed into the sandy waters
I feel numb
and it kept drowning

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

chuck a chicken in my head

Almost got grossed by words today due to overdose of fun, it seems so holidays...it is holidays.

By the time you realized my existence, would be a great deal of incomprehensive sick attitude, so as i've rephrased a couple of times, i don't care at all.

I could really have a nice time putting new words into my own vocab. Learnt a new word from an article titled "Bedside Manner" from yesterday's THESTAR.

proselytise = to convert or attempt to convert as a proselyte; recruit (i.e. : religion conversion)

Impressive guide on how to treat a patient during their last days. i never knew i made so many mistakes, or rather, the guide is pretty subjective. But it's interesting to read minds, maps the road to understanding and comprehension. How would you take on a dying person's mindset? Put away all the somber and start making them feel better. Ouch. Seems so hard, every step is an emotional hit if you do it the wrong way.


Talking about mind reading, I have this luck sometimes to fool people with my wild cards. Only when the good is going, I just get it right and it's cool to tickle people with it. haha. Come play with me, and maybe I could get you right, or try getting me right. It would and could be fun ^^

Trying to maintain or at best, reduce my astig with as much sleep as possible and i just got up from bed at midnight.


I'm gonna be so right where i wanna be...
It's getting blur out there, and this straightjacket feeling ain't going anywhere...

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Friday, May 04, 2007

The place I have come to fear most...everytime..

Again, I have reached the place where I have come to fear most. I missed my life being only present, without past, neither future. I want it back for sure, for myself, no other someone. It was a mistake, once, long time ago, and now, definitely awake and totally sure. Some have loved me a thousand years, and the next day, they don't love me no more. Some may yet to hate me so much all these time, but very much loved me for that one second.

Although assignments flow in altogether, it is oh-so-holiday here.

Love my life, because of them :">




15 bucks dinner at UA carpark, the event sucked but anywhere with my dears, nothing could be compared to them :)



Geographers and karaoke night out~




Choke of the day = sleepy eyes for Wesak Day



Perhaps tomorrow shall start renewing my due dates for books and finals. It's the end of Delta and the idea of it really makes me sad though. Trying best to start my FYP, but it's like a long lost story in Terabithia.

There are reasons for every concussions, every damn mistakes, every regrets and bullshit crap. The phrase I've always admired of Rhet Butler in Gone With the Wind


~Frankly, I don't give a damn~


It really gets into me somehow. I so hate it, people only wants their way out sometimes, i don't care how they perceive me, but I have my own style, so I practically don't give a damn. It can't be help to not aggravate my inner truth. When the world comes against you, but you know you have a few there to care and they love you the way you are, wrong or right, be it.


I love colours, brightens my grey, and hope it paints me all well soon.

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